As you've all been able to clearly read for yourselves, this has been a really rotten week. It seems as though everything is hitting the fan all at once, and while I almost took the opportunity to go insane, someone (my very best girlfriend D.) said something to me that made me look twice at what the implications of a jump into the crazy pool would be for Emo and Happy.
They have seen and can feel that things are seriously askew in our lives, but how they handle situations such as these in their futures rests solely on how I teach them to react now.
How true is that? If I want them to react with courage and fortitude of spirit...then they have to see me display these things in the face of difficulties.
And I do want that for them. I want them to see that things are tough all over but at the end of the day...they will carry on.
I want them to know that as much as it hurts to love someone sometimes...it's so totally worth it...even at the end. Even when you have to let go...or walk away because times have changed a person. It's all worth it.
Emo is worried because I've been so sad and angry...he doesn't like to see his mom like that. All the words of wisdom I can give him also came from my friend D...."no matter what happens we will be ok."
Days are rough when that's all you have to tell yourself...but it's all I have. We're focused on all the good people and great things we have going on in our lives...knowing a lot of those things aren't changing helps the kids cope and they can anticipate better days ahead but I feel like I'm barely surviving.
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